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second date/careless
02:14
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One day, I’ll get a second date
I hope… that I’m not too late!
Is it something about me?
I wish I could see
But I lack
Self-awareness
Wish that I weren’t
So careless
One day, someone will like me first
Maybe that’ll make things worse
My ego could inflate
And then seal my fate
But instead
I’m embarrassed
Wish that I weren’t
So careless
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2. |
record store
02:43
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In the darkest corner of the record store they met at
She tells him that he’s immature and I don’t think he’ll forget that
Are they breaking up now?
They knew it’d happen somehow
Just not in such a public place
“You hurt me” it’s written on his face
It seems their future’s gone without a trace
“But no matter what, I’m still in love with you”
She just rolls her eyes at him when this he tries to tell her
Their chance of survival’s slim it's not quite on that bell curve
Their lack of communication
Results in so much frustration
Causing both of them to sigh
He looks like he’s about to cry
So instead he looks up at the sky
No matter what, he’s still in love with you
After all we have accomplished
I wish that we’d been more honest
Honest
So no matter what I’m still in love with you
[killer guitar solo]
She just walks out the door
Leaving… him on the floor
Maybe he could get up someday
He’s hurt now but he’ll be okay
It was bound to happen anyway
But even so he’s still in love with you
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3. |
time of need
03:06
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Thought that I knew you well
Yet I never could tell
How you felt about me
And now my broken heart
Tells me that it’s not smart
I should just leave you be
But I miss you
Could have kissed you
When I had the chance!
I’ve always wished you loved me
Now I hope you’re thinking of me
In your time of need
When I first saw you I
Almost started to cry
You were perfect to me
Maybe you always knew
How I felt about you
It’d be worth it to see
Is it too late?
Is this my fate?
To have no romance
(Bridge): Cuz without you I might
Think about it tonight
Is this my last dance?
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4. |
the joke being...
02:28
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(The joke being) that you’d ever love me
(The joke being) that you’re thinking of me
(The joke being) that you care about me
(The joke being) you can’t live without me, no
(The joke being) I don’t irritate you
(The joke being) that I don’t frustrate you
(The joke being) you can even stand me
(The joke being) you won’t reprimand me, no
I hate when I get like this
But still the feeling persists
If I think that you might like me
My brain decides to spite me
But this conclusion
Depends on the delusion
That you think I’m worth a damn
And that’s why I am…
(The joke being) I’m engaging to you
(The joke being) not enraging to you
(The joke being) that I lack self-pity
(The joke being) that I can be witty, no
(The joke being) you would solve my issues
(The joke being) with more than just tissues
(The joke being) that you wouldn’t hate me
(The joke being) and continue to date me
I wish I’d just befriend her
Or any of her gender
Instead I blame society
For my own impropriety
But this straight, white male stuff
Is more than enough
To derail any train
And so I remain
Unable to cope
So pessimistic and yet full of hope
I thought that I had friends
And so I have always been
The joke being...
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5. |
isolated
02:24
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She feels trapped inside her head
She doesn’t know if she should feel alive
Or dead
She feels ensnared by circumstances
Conspiring to crush her, she decides to take
Her chances
She’s been feeling so isolated
Worse than she’d anticipated
People tell her she will get through it
Even when she tells them that she can’t
Do this
They don’t believe her and send her to school
Where being an outcast is a constant
And a rule
She’s out of print at your record store
They don’t make people like her anymore
I don’t know why anyone says
“Your teenage years are your best!”
Wish that I could show them how
She is feeling right now
[SOLO]
She hopes that she will get by
It’s so hard not to want to die
Instead she’s deadened
So she won’t feel threatened
But this all won’t last you see
Until the next catastrophe
It’s all temporary
And that is scary
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tentatively optimistic
03:23
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He walked right the door
Of that brand new vintage store
When he saw her sitting there
Just playing with her hair
AND IT SLAYED HIM
He wanted to talk to her
Or even walk to her
Sometimes it causes pain
But on that day - his brain
IT OBEYED HIM
So it seems to him this day
Things will surely go his way
For once
He’s op-ti-mis-tic
Although
He’s so-lip-sis-tic
And so
He’s wrong about this
Ignorance is bliss
She’s thinking “who’s this jerk?
Who waltzes into my work
Thinks he’s so full of charm
When I've got more in my arm
Than his... whole body!”
“I’ve heard this song before
Don’t like it any more
Why do they feel entitled
Then end up being spiteful
It’s so... haughty”
I swear if he asks me out
I’ll say no without a doubt
[chorus]
Though I decry it
I’m just like him
I can’t deny it
Cuz I’m a SWM
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Got a date with a girl
Guess I'll give that a whirl
Not quite sure how it will go
I feel hopeful despite my thoughts
Tying my stomach into knots
I just hope it doesn’t show
What I’m unsure about’
Is if it will work out
And that I can’t know
You’re going to be fine…
Going back in a few weeks
Everything should not look bleak
But to me it all does
I can’t help how I think
But I feel I’m on the brink
Of something.so much worse
It’s so difficult to
Have to find something new
And it feels like a curse
And now I’m home
But I’m still alone
And trapped in a bind
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8. |
lobotomized
02:16
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Now I’m back in Texas
Which spawns worries in excess
It’s been so long since I’ve seen her
But I’m feeling so alone
So I hide behind my phone
And a perfectly aloof demeanor
It’s really not complicated
I feel quite eviscerated
A long way of saying that I feel blue
Without you
I feel crushed by the modern world
And my crushes on many girls
They give me so much to write about
But when I can’t even try
And want to lay down and die
It’s harder to figure out what to do
Without you
Bridge: You give me
A purpose
Without you
I’m worthless
So I feel pretty low
And I’m not sure if you know
Just how much you mean to me
I’d like to tell you now
But I am quite unsure how
In any case I don’t know what I would do
Without you
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9. |
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I used to feel alive
Sometimes
It may seem like I’m happy
But I’m
Not sure if I can take this
Anymore
I’m not sure what the future
Has in store
My future is so hazy
And I don’t know
If I am going crazy
Cuz it seems so
I’ve lost both my direction
And my drive
I can’t deal with rejection
And still thrive
Uncertainty
Has grabbed hold of me
And I don’t know
If it’ll let go
Used to
I used to feel alive
Uncertainty
Has grabbed hold of me
And I don’t know how
I’m gonna get out
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10. |
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Another lonely weekend
Spent in my room
If I die here right now this
Would be my tomb
Don’t know how I survive
Without you
Don’t know how I stay alive
Can’t get out of this well
It’s my own living hell
But just like Sisyphus
I’ll keep going if I must
Maybe you’re
Behind your door
Maybe I
Shouldn’t even try
Either way
I feel terrible
Another lonely weekend
Spent in my room
I’m so tired right now
I feel consumed
Don’t know how I survive
Without you
Don’t know how I stay alive
Woke up late in the day
No one to see anyway
Try to get out of bed
And push these thoughts from my head
I know you’re
Not at my door
Maybe I
Shouldn’t even try
But that hope
Is all that keeps me going
Another lonely weekend
Spent in my room
If I die here right now this
Would be my tomb
Don’t know how I survive
Without you
Don’t know how I stay alive
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11. |
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Guess I’m ending on a whimper
Cuz I don’t know how else
It’s the end of December
All my gifts on the shelf
It’d be so much simpler
If I did it myself
BRIDGE: And there is no way
That you can help me now
I’ve been trapped by uncertainty
This is my way out
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